Monday, April 27, 2020

Spring 2020


"I'm just kinda peeking out of windows these days"


Those are the words of a Nova Scotia woman who lives near Portapique, the area first connected with the killings on the weekend of April 18 and 19. The worst mass murder in Canadian history occurred there at a time when people across the country and most of the world are enduring a pandemic, many under quarantine. That's why her words struck me as a perfect description of how not only she but all Nova Scotians, Canadians and people around the world are feeling this spring. We don't know what's happening or going to happen. We're listening to medical people, scientists and some government leaders, just trying to get a  hint of what's going on and what we should do. But we can't see the big picture. We're all, "...kinda peeking out of windows these days."





Stan Rogers was born in Ontario, but his parents were Nova Scotians and he often spent summers with relatives in Guysborough County, Nova Scotia. If you want to hear what seems to be one of the best songs about the kind of resilience a time like this requires I'm going to try to put his version of, 'The Mary Ellen Carter' on this blog. 


Stan Rogers performs "The Mary Ellen Carter" in One Warm Line documentary

 







Saskatoon blossoms, arrow leaf balsam root and shooting stars on the Anderson Ranch where I usually lead the first VOC ramble of the spring. This year all official things are cancelled, but I've walked there a few times with one or two friends. 

Monday, April 20, 2020


It's a bright, sunny April morning in Vernon. The quarantine imposed by Covid 19 has driven us all into our homes, if we are fortunate enough to have them, and forced us to scrounge around among our own resources. By now I have weeded my yard so thoroughly it's less green than it was. Weeds are not only well rooted and numerous, but also early risers. There must be a lesson there, but I'm to lazy to learn it. I have also redesigned the sun room where I sit most mornings and I am right now, going through old papers and photos. The past is not a bad place to get lost in, for a while. Fortunately, I also have some friends to call me back to the present, either for a real walk or bike ride or for a virtual break in the increasingly creative life on line. 


Among the old papers I found

poems I had written over the years. I read them and consigned most to the recycle. I fixed up a few which I will put in this blog. 




                    Seasons


Winter:

Clear, cold, 

flushed cheeks,

deep sleeps beneath 

heavy blankets,

the comforting whistle of wind, outside. 


skidding sludge

trudging to work 

in salt-lapped leather boots,

and back, 

 in the dark. 


Spring:

Longer light,

sun-warmed scents

of blossoms, bulbs, and buds

and bright colour bursting.

Calves, colts and kids

testing limbs

with the joy of Pinocchio

new-hewn from old wood

the fleetness of bootless feet

and then the heat of


Summer:

lazy, lowing, buzzing, growing

seemingly without effort. 


The sun that swells my garden

lulls me through shoeless walks. 

I am restored by warmth, cool drinks, deep water, alive for


Autumn:

regal show of purple and mauve

sovereign season of reaping

the golden reward. 

The spider spins its web. 

The loud and haunting chevron overhead completes

the circle of the seasons. 

As burning fire-hues fall,

bare branches wait for winter. 




Camp and School


Opening the camp 

in early spring is exciting, 

for kids,

following the tracks

a moose has cracked

through the thin crust of snow

down to the water that now laps the  big rock on the shore 

Of Superior. 

Tomorrow to run unshod

through grass, smelling lilacs

and then summer that passes 

with the ease of gathering 

for walks to the next beach and 

back and forth like a pendulum 

swimming

thoughtlessly from late mornings 

to the dark of night. 

Into fall corn roasts 

and school. 

The thrill, palpable and chill

of waking and putting on new clothes to face reality

the call back to

where there are

heroes to watch 

and whisper about,

secrets to share 

in washrooms,

the only sure refuge from

the surveillance of 

the tick ridden, quirky ones

who patrol the passage,

spark the imagination 

and interrupt the most important 

encounters of life. 



Summer


An old man sits and smokes 

outside his door

then slowly retreats 

from the heat of the day

into the house once more. 

But the sun will sleep

before he will. 

He'll move back out 

with his chair

to sit and smoke

in the evening cloak

that covers him unaware. 




Work and Play


It's fun at a party 

to look at people. 

To stand detached

and watch how friends behave

when they do what they want. 

When they spend their precious free time. 


Most of mine talk, 

and so do I

In elaborate babble,

we entertain each other

With tales to advantage dressed. 

Or we dance 'til we're dripping 

then drink and talk some more. 


It's play that makes friends

willing to be silly,

to go to extremes 

not held back by the necessary,

the working world. 

Lucky to have 

a place to escape into

and from. 



Breaking away


Winds lift mist in wisps

Over the water

To whirl and spin and rise

Like brides

To mingle with the bright blue air

of a new day. 


Sun splits the dark

and makes it glow

in gold. 

The day begins again,

like life, in separation 

and hope. 


An infant infinity finds,

for youth to squander 

and spend

the riches with which it is blessed. 

Renewed like Nature

To try

To help

And be helped

When winds no longer lift. 



Spartan Mothers


Did Spartan mothers tell their sons

to come home 

with their shields or on them?

And if so:

How were these words uttered?

Were they whispered into sleeping ears on the night before battle?

Or were they screamed by harpies 

from high fortress walls?


how received?

Did dreaming warriors rise renewed and warned?

Or did the shrieking menace mix with the clang

of metal on metal and stone

As bold and noisy soldiers

marched from home

to War?

From where was it untimely ripped?

This bogus, this bombast

that's boiled in a cauldron and sold

to the desperate as soup. 

The needy by the ambitious readily duped. 

Why would a mother willingly urge her son to something so hideous?



The Ant


Ants don't have time

to lie in the sun

leisurely 

like me. 

I've never seen one saunter

or sit in the shade of a tree. 

All heads bent down

Noses to the ground

Feather feet on my back,

in their path. 

The routes they have worn through the ages

are long

and heavy their loads. 

Why have they never built roads?

Or discovered the wheel?

Man's so inventive

Superior 

Yet I feel alone?

High on dizzying stilts

So far from home. 



The Carpenter


Goad, thorn and toad

An incantation of a character 

An elf-like man

A carpenter. 

A lippy Jack of all trades. 

His priorities clear:

Women,

Work,

Cigarettes and

Waterfall. 

Pragmatic and whimsical. 

He spins and sleeps through extremes. 

To a balance-not perfect

by any means-

But very human. 



This forsythia is the glory of my yard at the moment


Sunday, April 12, 2020

Easter Sunday, April 12, 2020


And there are no cars in the Anglican church parking lot across the street. That in itself is, 'an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace'. That is the definition of a sacrament that I learned at a High Anglican Church camp I went to with my friend Sue Peters the summer after grade 5. Looking at the empty lot this morning I was moved and reminded of that definition; by staying away from their church the members of it were showing their real concern for all people in our community. That certainly is an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace. 


It's so hard to grasp the reality of the threat this virus poses to us all over the world. When we look out the windows of the houses we are confined in, if we are fortunate enough to have houses, and see sun shining and spring greening as always, all seems normal. Members of religious communities are used to taking the leap of faith that we all must take now. Even if this virus seems virtual, something we only hear about on the radio or see on tv or You Tube or some other social media, we have to behave as medical and scientific experts tell us we must if we want to save our lives and those of our fellow earthlings. Fortunately most of the people in BC are feeling, thinking and most importantly acting humanely. 

 

The sun is pouring into my newly rearranged sunroom,the buds on the hazelnut trees that I planted four years ago and that haven't produced a nut yet are about to burst and the forsythia is a hopeful spray of yellow. Nature's renewal is always a solace in times of trouble. I hope the world comes out of this time of struggle against a novel virus with a renewed sense of the fact that we share this planet and we'd better work harder together to help each other to preserve it. 


Lately I've been reading, Fields of Blood, by Karen Armstrong. It's well written, informative, fascinating and far beyond me, but I am gleaning a fraction of what she writes. It's especially germane because she presents a vast historical look at the tension that has always existed between religion and politics in human civilizations. In Canada the moral compasses of church and state seem to be pointing in similar directions at the moment. Some evangelicals around the world seem to be taking a different tack. And Trump, Bolsonaro and Victor Orbán are on their own wheels of fortune, spinning around in their tireless pursuit of material self interest. This made me very interested to read the part of Karen Armstrong's study that shows how ancient their reptilian brains are. Most of humanity moved beyond this approximately 120 million years ago when the limbic system developed over the core reptilian brain. As she writes:




 However in her discussion of the much earlier Shang Dynasty (1600 to 1046 BCE ) we see another more reptilian picture:



And so it goes. 


Jay and May's Easter walk to see the cherry blossoms along the canal near their place






Jay is wearing the shirt he got at Five Fathoms in Vernon. They did most of his tattoos.  





Wednesday, April 8, 2020




VAN DE VYVERE, James Lawrence April 8th, 1947 - March 11th, 2010 Died of cancer. He faced it as he had all the other struggles in his life, with hope but without illusions and always with a humane consideration for those around him, his family and friends. He was a much loved father, husband, son, brother, uncle, friend teacher and colleague. "He was a man, take him for all in all. I shall not look upon his like again." Jim did his undergraduate work at Waterloo Lutheran University, his Masters in English Literature at Lakehead University, where he met his wife Jan Boyce. He received a Doctorate in Literature from the University of Ottawa. He worked for most of his career as a professor of English literature and cinema at Heritage College in Gatineau, Quebec. Aside from being a much appreciated teacher, he played an active role in the administration and social life of the school. He worked to improve the quality of English education in west Quebec. It was also at Heritage that he made some of his best friends, whose company on fishing trips and around the dinner table he always enjoyed. Friendship and family were very important to him. He also enjoyed playing tennis, downhill skiing, reading and talking for hours with good friends over a few drinks. Jim is survived by his wife, Jan, son, Jay, father, Jules, brothers, Bert, Brian, Rob and their families and by his cousin Danny Van de Vyvere Jim would like to thank all the truly caring professionals who worked to help him in the Wakefield Clinic, Gatineau Hospital and the Ottawa General Hospital. His death was not a defeat; it was evidence of the strength of human nature, theirs and his. In accordance with his wishes, cremation has taken place and a Memorial Service will be held on his birthday Thursday, April 8th, 2010 at the West Chapel of Hulse, Playfair and McGarry Funeral Home, 150 Woodroffe Avenue, Ottawa. There will be a visitation at 2 p.m. followed by a Service in the Chapel at 3 p.m. In lieu of flowers donations can be made to the Canadian Cancer Society.

Published on March 20, 2010


Jim carefully prepared his funeral, Albert presented it just as he would have wanted and his friends read the pieces he had chosen very well. Albert asked me if I wanted him to invite people to speak of their memories of Jim; I said no. I thought that Jim had prepared what he wanted and it should be left that way. I regretted that decision after the service when Jim's good friend Ken Baughan came up to me and gave me what he had written about Jim and had wanted to present at the funeral. I was really moved by his memories. I include a small part below:




                         

Something I wrote not long after Jim died:


       Jim


The man with whom 

I fell in love,

laughed, fought,

talked, worked, 

played and stayed

for almost forty years. 

And now in tears

to no avail

remember. 

The living try, 

as did the dead,

to do their best.